~~One day it just clicks. You realize what's important and what isn't. You learn to care less about what other people think of you and more about what you think of yourself. You realize how far you've come and remember when you thought things were such a mess that you would never recover. And you smile. You smile because you are truly proud of yourself and the person you've fought to become.~~ Unknown
I know you are reading this and shaking your head. This isn't you and nothing is clicking and you just want to scream or throw something or cry. Maybe you feel such anger because what I'm telling you is so off base that you feel like you hate me. Maybe you just feel that this will never be you so it confirms those negative thoughts you have about yourself.
Go back, please, and re-read the very first line. "One day it just clicks". One day may not be today. It may not have been yesterday or a year ago or a minute ago. It doesn't mean it's not just around the corner. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe 5 minutes from now. Maybe in a second or two.
Until then, trust that it's out there. Trust that you deserve what everyone else seems to have. Peace of mind in their quit. Solid footing. Wisdom and experience. Joy. Trust that by hanging on just a bit longer, it will be just a bit easier next time. Trust that the freedom you long for is there, other emotions are just clouding your judgment. Trust that by quitting, you truly are giving yourself the gift of life. Trust that. Trust that no matter how hard you feel it's getting, you have something inside you that is stronger and you can hold on.
One day, dear quitters, it really will click. Until then, trust in yourself. You can do this. You are doing this. You have it in you.
One day you will smile because you are truly proud of the person you've fought to become. I am smiling now because I see the person you already are and I see that fighter in you. Just trust in yourself.