~~To deal with men by force is as impractical as to deal with nature by persuasion.~~ Ann Rand
Maybe you don't understand. Maybe you think it's different for you. Maybe you think it really doesn't matter because you're not 'really smoking' anymore.
My dear quitter, let me gently correct you. Smoking is smoking whether it is a 'few puffs' or a 'few packs'. You are no different than any other smoker trying to quit. And I think that most of all, if you really were honest with yourself, you truly do understand.
So stop trying, please. Stop testing yourself. Stop buying them, even if you throw them away. Stop thinking about buying them. Stop thinking that you will just have one. Stop trying to fool yourself into thinking you are quitting.
Because, dear quitter, quitting means not smoking. Not one cigarette. Not one puff. Not buying them. Not toying with the idea of buying them. No, I am not being mean. I understand those half-ass quits....I used to do them quite often. The "I have to quit" to the "I have it this time" to the "I'm the most stupid quitter in the world!!". The excuses. The whines. The reasons. The hopes that someone will make me feel better about being a smoker.
Just stop. Breathe. Breathe again. Clear your mind. And let these words sink in.
Either quit or don't. If you choose to smoke, be honest with yourself and be honest with those around you. You are an addict and you are chosing to allow your addiction to continue. As an adult, you have that right, no matter how very much we wish a better life for you.
If you choose to quit, never pick up another cigarette. Ever. period. No matter how much you think you want to. That's just addiction talking. No matter if you want to challenge yourself. Addiction talking again. No matter if you just need one puff to make it through. Addiction talking.
Quitting means not smoking. It's that simple.