~~This is a call to arms. A call to be gentle, to be forgiving, to be generous with yourself. The next time you look in the mirror, try to let go of the story line that says you're too fat or too sallow, too ashy or too old, your eyes are too small or your nose is too big; just look in the mirror and see your face. When the criticism drops away, what you will see then is just you, without judgment, and that is the first step in transforming your experience of the world.~~ Oprah Winfrey
I just wanted to come here tonight to bring a little hope or a little peace or a little gentleness to those here who may need it. When I have a rough day...maybe because of hearing a child's heartbreaking story...maybe because of some personal issues....maybe because it's just that kind of day...I have this need to bring comfort to others who may have also had a rough day.
Over three years ago, I just would have smoked my pain away. That's what my addiction did...it erased the world, it killed my emotions, and isolated me from both the good and the bad in the world. Frankly, I would rather feel pain. I would rather feel anger. I would rather feel heartbreak. To not feel is to not live and I want to live much more than I want to die.
So I come here tonight because I want to bring some peace, some quiet joy, some hope to you who struggled today. I want to remind you to love yourself, to be gentle with yourself as you grow in your quit. And know, really know, that you are ok simply the way you are. You are not "too" anything. You are perfect.
If you've had a bad day, just remember that a bad day does not equal a bad life. Give yourself a break. Forgive yourself for not being kind enough to yourself. And then be kind to yourself :)
Have a good evening, all. Know you are all in my thoughts tonight.