~~Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes it feels like your life is caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they just want to curl up in a ball and go into that place between life and death, saying "I don't want to exist" isn't saying "I want to die". It's saying "I wish, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel". I don't think there is anything wrong with that and if you don't know how it feels to feel this way then you have no place to judge anyone who does.~~ Unknown
I try to write something here on EX every day. Not because I have 'successfully' quit, but because I know what it's like to fail. Again and again I tried to quit over the years and again and again I didn't.
I know what it's like to feel shame over an addiction that isolates and controls. I know what it's like to feel alone and lost. I know what it's like to feel everyone is quitting but me.
So I come here and write to let you know you're not alone. You're not any different than me. I'm not any different than you. I simply had my "ah-ha!!" moment and managed to crawl out from under what was killing me....both physically and spiritually.
There is no magic formula for quitting or believe me, we ALL would be telling you what it is. You can read hundreds of posts suggesting this or offering that but until you understand the meaning behind the words...they are just words that sound good.
You truly have to understand "I don't do that anymore" or "not one puff ever". You have to feel the power behind the sentiments. And you will. Believe me, you will get this if you just don't give up!!
So I come here every day because I believe in you. In your ability to quit, even if it takes 999 times. I believe in your desire to live smoke free. I believe in your courage and your strength and your wisdom. Because I was you.
Hang in there and don't give up...don't give up on your quit, don't give up on yourself. Read, ask questions, form friendships and support, and look inside yourself. Because that is where your quit lies. Within you.
Wishing you all the health, the goodness, the joy this day has to offer,
Sheri
