~~It's astonishing how short a time it can take for very wonderful things to happen.~~ Unknown
I smoked for about 30 years, I think. In less that 6 months after my quit, I was settled in. I knew, of course, that I would still have those "ugh" moments but none of those "hanging by a thread, nail-biting, I am in agony" moments.
How wonderful is that?!! It's astonishing, really. It didn't take another 30 years of not smoking before I felt better....after 30 years of killing myself bit by bit.
Even more, I learned that being angry is ok. I learned I can make it through stress, unhappiness, loss, agony, embarrassment. I learned that life is more than getting from one cigarette to the next.
Life is amazing! Beautiful, breathtaking, delightful!! And during those moments when it's not, I know with absolute certainty that the beauty will be there when I get to the other side of not. Whether it takes an hour, a week, or a few months. The goodness, the sheer beauty of life is waiting for me whenever I am ready to see it again.
And it's there for you, as well. All the magnificence of the world is waiting for you to see it. When you are ready. When you recognize that it's there. When you are willing to leave the negatives behind. You really are in control of your view of the world. Take off the addiction smokescreen.....let go of the addiction crutch....release the control that nicotine has on you.....and begin to heal. Allow yourself time. Allow yourself grief. Allow yourself silence. And then turn to life and be astonished.
Happy Weekend, all!! Sheri