~~This is the part where you find out who you are.~~ Unknown
It wasn't until I decided that I didn't like who I was that I created the me I did like. I didn't like that I allowed a cigarette to dictate my hours. I didn't like that I couldn't control my mind when I wanted....really wanted....to smoke. I didn't like that I chose going outside to smoke rather than staying inside with my family. I didn't like who I had become. Weak-willed, stinky, and ashamed of it all.
So there I was. Miserable. It was time to change. It was time to build off my strengths. It was time to have some fun. I was going to make the rest of my life the best of my life. So I quit. I decided how I would quit. I decided when I would quit. And I decided that nothing would make me smoke again.
I was in control. And, looking back now, I can say that I always was in control, I just didn't know it. Hard to think when your brain....your whole being....is addicted to a chemical. Or whatever nicotine is.
I have a life I love. I love that I am healthy. I love that I make the decisions in my life...clear headed and rational. I love that each and every moment, I am grateful that I remain smoke free.
You can do it, you know. You can find joy in quitting. You can find yourself once that smoke clears and your brain is once again your own. You will delight yourself. You will astound yourself. And most of all, you will save yourself. And it will feel absolutely amazing to be your own hero!!
918 days for me. Maybe it's only 1 hour for you. Maybe it's one week. Maybe you haven't even quit yet. I started there myself. I know. But I'm here to tell you that in 918 days, you can be here telling others the same thing I am saying to you now. Life is grand when you don't smoke!!
All the best to you!! Sheri