~~If you're struggling, you deserve to make self-care a priority. Whether that means lying inbed all day, eating comfort food, putting off homework, crying, sleeping, rescheduling plans, finding an escape through a good book, watching your favorite TV show, or doing nothing at all---give yourself permission to put your healing first. Quite the voice telling you to do more and to be more, and today, whatever you do, let it be enough. feel your feelings, breathe, and be gentle with yourself. Acknowledge that you're doing the best you can to cope and survive. And trust that during this time of struggle, its enough.~~ Daniell Koepke
Have you ever wondered why everyone else seemed to be able to quit...except for you? I did. Often.
Have you ever thought that it didn't make sense to you that you couldn't "keep" a quit? I did. Many times.
I read. I gained knowledge. I learned about addiction. I knew what could happen if I didn't quit. Still, it didn't take. I needed something that no one here......no one period....could give me.
I needed to believe in myself. I needed to make myself a priority. I needed to learn to love myself. Because without that, I was a smoker. My thoughts, my feelings, my needs were always secondary to everyone else's. And so I stayed unhappy....exhausted....and unwilling to give up that artificial pleasure that smoking gave me.
I left this site. I focused on self-esteem. Mine :) I focused on my health. I focused on being ok with my flaws and faults. It took time, of course, but the time started to fly as I learned that I wasn't so bad! As I discovered that I was kinda....adorable. I liked me.
And so I got better. I healed. My heart mended. My soul began to giggle in delight. And my quit took on a life of it's own. True story!!
This is why I blog. For those of you who may read, struggle to get where everyone else seems to be, and feels less than perfect. Maybe you just need to be reminded that you aren't a copy of the other quitters here....you are a brilliant first addition of you!! You cannot quit looking at everyone else's quit. You need to look inward and know how to take good care of you. Know your strengths, know your weaknesses, and know that the world will be a little less bright without you. In other words, you matter!! You are loveable. You are delightful. And somewhere within you is a quitter longing for that freedom. Relax and break free. Your way.
This is why I blog. This is why I stay. I know you can succeed. Maybe you just need reminding of how special you actually are. Sheri