~~Everything changed when she stopped asking "Why me?", and started saying, "Why not?"~~ Queenisms
Life can sometimes be fun. Sometimes glamorous and filled with love. Sometimes it can suck the life right out of you. You can't really take your pick because life doesn't discriminate. Everyone has good times, bad times, and a lot of in-betweens.
I like to encourage people. I like to be supportive. I love to be positive. Because, for me, positivity gets me through those life sucking moments. It may hurt, it may damage, it may bruise....but it won't keep me down.
My life sucking moments still happen. I don't believe I've ever said otherwise. But I don't smoke through them anymore. Negative coping skill.....life killing addiction.....call it what you will. Quitting and being positive about my quit has instilled wonderful things in my life. A bad day? I go to the One Eared Rabbit. I dance. I help someone else. Bad days bring out the good in me.
Quitting has brought out the best in me. No more hiding behind a smokey cloud. No more stifled emotions....positive and negative. No more addictive thinking...which takes longer to recover from than the physical addiction.
I am free. I am happy even when it's not a happy day. I am me. Sometimes silly. Sometimes serious. Sometimes delightful. Whatever I am, I like it. I like being smoke free and I like being healthy and I like gaining all the good things that come from loving yourself.
I have had some struggles lately. But why shouldn't I? It's life. And all in all, it's a beautiful life!