~~I am perfect in my imperfections, secure in my insecurities, happy with my choices, strong in times of weakness, and beautiful in my own way. I am "myself".~~ unknown I am a Victims Advocate and before that a case manager, rehab advisor and child protective services supervisor. Nothing special. Not glamorous. Not high profile. So who am I to tell you how or why or when to quit smoking? Who would listen to me? Why would anyone listen to me? I guess those things have been in the back of my mind...always. maybe that is why I don't give advice. maybe that is why I don't give tough love. Maybe that is why I've never really told my story. It took me a long time to quit smoking. I failed miserably so many times. I know now that as an addict, I can't play at quitting. I can never have another cigarette...never. I've made it. Over two years quit now and I am solid in it. But quitting doesn't make me a genius. It makes me relieved and proud and happy. I learned a lot during these past two years. I learn to love myself, even my flaws! I learn to appreciate all that I have. And I learned that I can take really, really good care of myself. now maybe it's your turn to quit. Or maybe you quit and feel that this Ricky feelings will never go away. At one time I would have wished that I could take away those icky feelings for you. but now I know that those icky feeling will blossom into something absolutely wonderful and you will grow so much from this process. Your journey is yours to take and I've learned to allow people their journeys. I can walk with you for a while, I can encourage you to enjoy your journey but I can't take it from you and I won't. so Who am I to tell you how or when or why to quit smoking? I am me. someone who is taking a journey similar to the one you're going through right now, someone who spelled the same feelings someone who has gone through the same physical and emotional withdrawal. I will never say I will I understand what you're going through, but we've walked similar paths. at this point in my journey I'd love to stop and turn around and hold out my hand for the next person. you will get through this! It does get easier! And you will never, ever regret quitting. okay, much too long a blog! Enjoy the rest of your weekend and may you learn to enjoy your journey!! Sheri
