Nostalgia (n): a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time.
Did you ever feel it? That warm, bittersweet feeling that squeezes the heart and yet also brings a smile to your lips? Maybe it's a song on the radio, maybe it's a picture from your youth. But it's there and you can sometimes just pull it out when you need it...that feeling of happiness of a former place or time.
That's how I feel here. I searched for past friends who aren't here anymore. Neen, Greg, Laura, KathyS...and my very special bestest friend, Daisy. How I miss them!! Four or five years ago, they were such a big part of my life....we laughed, we supported each other, we had fun, we cried.
I ended up smoking again back then. I lost my perspective, lost my health, lost my quit. Went and hid not because this site or because my dearest friends weren't supportive or kind but because I had to pull myself out of a deep dark pit that I had fallen into. And so I did. My health returned, my balance returned, my smile returned. I healed.
And some lovely friends I met here four or five years ago are still here and still dear. Rickie, Tommy, Dale, the best person in the world--BeeJay!!--LindaN....so many reminders of goodness and love in the world.
But I miss you, Neen. And Daisy. And Kathy. And the rest. Please know that you meant the world to me at a time when my world was so off kilter. You kept me sane. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart. To those I miss and to those who still keep me sane....Thomas, Teresa, JoAnne, lovely Sootie....you are shining examples of how the world should be. How all people should be. Good.
Thank you all.