Life is good!!
If I had been writing this about four years ago, I might have said things differently. Things like "Life is difficult for me" and "things certainly aren't going my way" or even "I don't understand why all these horrible things are happening all at once".
Four years later...now....I say things like "things are how they are" and "life is not the way it's supposed to be, it is the way it is....the way I cope with it is what makes the difference" or even "life isn't out to get anyone so I don't take things personally anymore".
This may not be true for everyone and I am certainly no expert at life (I've only lived once), but I have grown to appreciate that life is what it is. It is how I react to things that makes the difference in my life. People not liking what I do now? It's ok. They are not obligated to like it. Lots of negatives going on? I will get through them. Illness? At least I can walk....or think.....or move even if I have doctors and meds and tests. People in my life passing away? I am so glad that they were a part of my life to begin with.
What does this have to do with quitting? I did it. I knew I could, I committed to my quit, and nothing in life was going to ruin it. No one is able to get me in a bad mood. Nothing is able to take the dance out of my step. Life is truly good. What was not good before was how I reacted to it. I cannot wait for June 4th...one year of not smoking! But I celebrate daily...why wait?!
Maybe you already know all this. But I am still finding out. I am tickled with life and delighted to find new and wonderful ways to look at things. It has taken me awhile to understand how wonderful life is. Yes, bad things still happen. Yes, I have good days and not so good days. But through it all I know that it isn't that life is bad, it's that I'm simply having a bad day. I'll get through it. And now I can get through it smoke-free. How lovely that is!!
Happy Spring, all!
Sheri
