~~Don't ever give up. Don't even give in. Don't ever stop trying. Don't ever sell out. And if you find yourself succumbing to one of the above for a brief moment, pick yourself up, brush yourself off, whisper a prayer, and start where you left off. But never, ever, ever give up.~~ Richelle E. Goodrich
She worked so hard, this girl. Got her addiction under control, got herself under control, got her life under control. It took time and so much hard work, but she did it. Worked through some unresolved trauma, forgave herself for believing that she was 'less than', and found her balance somehow in all the chaos that was her world.
And then she simply gave up. And you can say it was her addiction talking and you might be right. And you could think she just wasn't strong enough, and you again might be right. But whether it was addiction or strength of character or mental health issues, the fact remains that she simply gave up. The light was gone from her eyes and the spark gone from her spirit. She didn't hear us anymore and she wasn't talking herself out of it....her hope was just...gone.
And when hope is gone, the will to do anything goes with it. She left it all behind and is in her own kind of private hell now where no one is allowed in and she won't step out. It's like watching someone you care about die without the closure of death. It's a horrendously helpless feeling and I don't have any clue what, if anything, is going to bring this girl back to life.
So I'm here asking each one of you...no matter who you are, what's going on, or where you are in life.....please don't give up. Even if you falter. Even if you 'slip'. Even if you feel like a total failure. Don't ever give up. Because once you do, that mountain you were climbing gets ever so much bigger and further away until you're not even starting over but instead slipping backwards...away from the light, away from the relief.
So you got some bad news? We'll help you deal with it as you cry, scream, rage, and sob. So you smoked? We'll brush you off as you get back up. We'll remind you how far you've come. We'll remind you of why you quit to begin with. Do you're anxious? Depressed? Stressed? Professional guidance along with support from friends as you learn coping skills can help.
Whatever you're going through, whatever you're thinking, whatever you feel you lack, please, please don't give up!! When you quit, you are moving into a totally different world, filled with joy, hope, contentment, and strength. Now, life will still happen and stuff will still go on....but the change is in YOU and YOU will feel able to get through it all because you'll have those coping skills in place. So grow that pretty, pretty quit you have. Turn towards the light. And leave those feelings of hopelessness behind you. Let them go...wish them well...close that door.
She matters...even though she doesn't want to right now. You matter. We all matter. We just have to remember that when things get tough. So please....hang tough.