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Day 776

Crunkgrinder
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3 7 16
I admit, in some ways, the longer you stay quit the harder it can be. Some days I forget that I even used to smoke, I forget about the times when I had no money and no smokes and I would dig through my ashtrays trying to find a salvageable end, and the worst part is I forget about the reasons I quit in the first place. Quitting was not easy, those first months before I finally started to ease in and stopped thinking about it all the time were hard, but I kept going because I remembered the reasons I quit vividly. I have gotten to the point where there are fleeting moments I remember the addiction when I get a small wiff of smoke but I forget for a second why I have continued to say no for 775 days. This is the power of addiction. It is not a habit. Many things have changed for me since I quit. I have moved 3 times. I went from Nebraska to Florida and have been here for exactly a year now. I have a new boyfriend, a new job, a new house, new friends, a college certificate, new hobbies, new everything. Everything in my life has changed cometely and I have adapted, but I still get urges from the "habit" I broke over 2 years ago. I don't mean to scare anyone into thinking it doesn't get easier - believe me, it does. Time has flown by since the last blog I posted over 100 days ago. But it is a reminder to remember why you quit and why its so important to understand addiction. You can't have just one, no matter what your mind tells you, no matter what your dreams tell you. I made a choice 776 days ago. Here's to 776 days of freedom.
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