In my recovery I must still deal with that compulsive side of my nature
that always wants more.
I forget to be grateful for what I have. I ruin relationships because I
have a code of behavior that I expect from others but not myself! I miss
the fun of the moment because I am preoccupied with what I am
missing elsewhere. I miss the comfort of my own home as I fantasize
about country mansions owned by millionaires. Always I want more ---
and yet in my own experience more has always been less.
Today I work hard on a spiritual program of gratitude. I have a
checklist of things I need to be grateful for; I work on my disease of
greed by talking about it.
Thank You for that part of me that must remain "poor".
Peace, Lisa
I have not smoked a disgusting cigarette for 7M 4W 1D 13h 52m (241 days). I also have not spent $1,449.46 buying those coffin nails! I would have smoked 6,039 smelly, disgusting cigarettes! I have NOT spent 1M 3W 2D 12h 27m of my life Inhaling that poison! My Quit Date is July 10th 2010
