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Good Morning Exer's!

 

It's so good to be back among such a dedicated group as this. I had a computer crash and was cut off from you but thought of you often, wondering how the journey has been and wanting to hear of all the wonderful successes that have occurred.

 

I came here often during my quit and would have to say that though I think I would have been able to quit without this site, I believe my journey was much easier thanks to this support web site. Along with this site I used the power of visualization to help my mind to stay focused on the positive side of quitting rather then the endless negative aspects that we can get trapped into thinking about constantly if we're not careful.

 

I created Mt. Freedom as the shining symbol of my journey. I mention this because so many have told me that my vision actually helped them on their own journeys. I remember when I first conceived of this concept and looked to the tiny summit of this mountain from the bottom. It seemed like such a formidable task to make it to the top and yet with just a hint of excitement I took that first step on the path to freedom the moment I put out that last cigarette.

 

As with any journey that is new to us, I carefully placed one foot in front of the other, making sure that I didn't slip to the bottom for I never wanted to start over. I always kept my eye on that summit, only daring to look down the slopes of Mt. Freedom when I needed the encouragement that can only come from seeing just how far I'd already come.

 

I kept a traveling companion with me that I called the addict within. This entity symbolized the constant conflict that we must face. The constant nagging and arguing with ourselves even though we know that what we're doing is the right thing. By assigning it a name I was able to tell this part of my mind to shut up when it became to loud. For me, it took away some of the power that the internal argument can bring if we let it.

 

And so I continued onward and upward to my path of freedom. As with any mountain, there's always the dangers that must be either climbed over or circumnavigated. I traversed many a boulder field and found my way around many of the slippery slopes that awaited me.

 

Soon I could see the summit clearly and I realized that there was a banner on the top, waiving in the wind and beckoning me always forward to my goal. As I got closer I saw that the banner was the banner of freedom. It was the goal that I so badly wanted to achieve. I was almost there, and the closer I got, the quieter the addict within became as if this entity already knew that it had lost.

 

And then came the day of peace for me. The day when all of those shackles of addiction had finally been ripped out of me and this was the day that I claimed the summit, walked up to that banner of freedom that I had longed for and raised it over my head shouting, “I'm Free!! I'm free at last!!”

 

There is no better feeling then the one that we find at the end of our journeys so long as we stick to the path and always keep our eyes on the prize of freedom. Never waiver from your commitment to do the right thing not only for yourself but for your loved ones as well. Find your way around each obstacle and make each step on the path a learning experience that will help you with those steps that reside in your future.

 

I see you down there on the slopes of Mt. Freedom and I always want you to know that there are so many here who have attained the summit. There are so many that waive that beautiful banner of freedom every day of their lives. And you know what? We've affixed ropes to make the journey easier. We cannot walk each moment of it with you but we can urge you on. So if you can see that summit then you'll see all of us up there waiting for you. To pat you on the back and welcome you to your new life of freedom.

 

So if you haven't quit yet then what are you waiting for? After all, we cannot take the last step of our journey until we take the first. And if your already on the journey then good for you!! I can't wait to see you on the summit!!

 

ONWARD TO FREEDOM!!

Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011

Reflections

Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 Jun 18, 2013

Good morning Exer's!

I hope all is well. Me, I'm doing great! Living life free of the slavery of addiction. But there was once a time when I wasn't free. There was once a time that I was a slave to my own ridiculous belief that there was really no reason to quit smoking. My addict within and myself took comfort in the self induced lies that allowed us to continue doing what we all know is the wrong thing to do.

The addiction remains comfortable until the first time that thought of quitting enters our minds. This is the first time that we experience the addict within and realize that this part of our brains isn't going to make quitting easy. And then when we not only think about quitting but actually decide to do so well, this is when the internal conflict becomes more then just a thing in the background. This is when the internal conflict becomes the screaming tantrum that only an addiction can play in our minds.

And yes, this is when the fear begins. Fear of changing our lives. Fear of the withdrawals. Fear of the unknown for we can never really understand what quitting is like until we actually do it. And so as each of these internal obstacles are faced, we begin a journey like no other.

We begin a journey that will effect us for the rest of our lives. And yes, the first steps can be the hardest and yet to know that it's worth it gives us the strength to continue on. To create yet another smoke free day. And so long as we can keep the addict within at bay with constant commitment and a belief in ourselves then gradually the journey gets easier.

Sure, there might be ups and downs along the way but so what. There might be doubts in ourselves and this can be a tough thing to fight through. For me, each day became a stepping stone to the next. I woke each morning and first faced the fact that yes, I am an addict. But then I'd smile with the next thought and that thought was my mantra. I simply told myself each morning that because of my efforts today, I'm building a bright future to look forward to. Kind of like saving money in the bank for something you really want.

And then I would spend my days thinking of just how badly I wanted to shed the shackles of addiction. How badly I wanted to taste the freedom that I knew was waiting for me. And you know what? It was all worth it. Every single discomfort that in the end made me stronger. Every little fight I won with myself to stay smoke free. Every single crave that had to be lived before I could be rid of them.

Looking back, it doesn't seem that hard but I know that this is in hindsight. This is yet another thing that I will never forget. That on those first days it is hard and yet doable so long as we are completely committed to a future of life and freedom. We all have to face that hard part to get to where so many of us are now.

So always try to remember that what's happening to you now as you start on this journey is indeed temporary. Always look to that future that you so badly want to see. To the day when you too can look back and smile for you see, had you not lived those discomforts before then there would be no freedom now.

Onward to freedom and your new wonderful life!!

Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011

Perceptions

Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 Jun 12, 2013

Good morning!!

I do hope this day finds you not only smoke free but also happy about the fact that you are! After all, that's why we're here. To take what could be a bad situation and try to turn it into something positive which is the true reality. After all, by quitting, we're not losing a thing. We only gain in quality of life as well as a sense of taking our lives back.

For those who don't know me, I quit two plus years ago and never really looked back. One thing that comes to mind for me was before I quit smoking, I would always stand on our deck and puff away as I stared intently into those mountains, never realizing that the only reason I did it was to justify my ability to continue on with my addiction.

I often wondered if I would still be so interested in those mountains after I quit or would I just hole up in my room and forget all that I enjoyed with those cigarettes. Would I continue to enjoy life? Would I continue to get outside? These were questions that my addicted mind posed to me as I tried to convince myself not to follow through with my quit.

 

The addict within will try all kinds of deceptions in order to keep the addiction alive. Though the addiction feels like it has a life of it's own, the reality is that the only life it really has is the life that we give it. This is the part of quitting that can effect us the most negatively. We must learn to no longer provide our addictions reasons to continue smoking. We must instead look to that new life that awaits us. We must look past the current discomforts to the wonderful life of our futures.

Because I can tell you that it's out there! How do I know? Because I'm living that future that I created a bit over two years ago. I'm living the fruits of my past commitment and you know what? I'd never have it any other way!

So go for it my friends! Ride that horse out of your addiction into the land of freedom that awaits you! It's a journey like no other and because of the freedom that awaits you, it's the best journey you could ever embark on!

On another note. I mentioned looking at those mountains in the beginning of this blog and you know what? Not a lot that I loved of my life has really changed since I quit smoking. In fact, the beauty of those mountains is more incredible then I ever would have believed for you see, I now actually see those mountains! I actually embrace the beauty that towers before me and when I do that it makes me realize just how small so many of our problems really are. . .

Good morning EXer's!

Just wanted to let those who know me know that first of all I'm still alive and smoke free. My long absence was due to a complete computer crash. Since that time I've purchased a new one, discovered that I'm a dinosaur when it comes to the new stuff and as such had to learn how to get around the web once again as well as learning this new operating system.

Needless to say, I've missed interacting with all of you wonderfully committed people here and will be returning soon to continue my blog for one thing is certain. Though we always find that internal peace that we so longed for when we quit, the bottom line is that our quits are a journey that really lasts for the rest of our lives. But it's a wonderful journey to partake in and the quality of life that we feel right away is amazing.

So for now I gotta run but will be returning on a more regular basis very soon.

Until then I wish you all success in your quits and look forward to meeting the newest who have chosen to take their own lives back!

 

Chuck