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Day 295 – Reflections of freedom

Chuck-2-20-2011
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As I approach 300 days, I again find myself reflecting back to the beginnings of my quit. To those strange days when it seemed like the very world that we live in has changed. Those days of confusion when one must fight just to remain free. Those days when we wake up and wonder if we’ll ever get through this journey. If we’ll ever lose our addiction. If we’ll ever become free.

In a way, those were days filled with wonder for you see, I had to learn myself in order to reach my ultimate goal. I had to find the strength that was hidden deep inside of me just waiting to be discovered and then awakened. I had to fill my entire body and soul with the desire to be free and I had to understand that it wasn’t so much the world that had changed as it was ME who had changed.

On those first days it seemed like I just had to get through each one, one day at a time and always believing that the end result would be worth the changes that I must now endure. But those days are now behind me. Those days are now just the memories that I knew they would be. I no longer have to fight my way through each day and I have found the peace that I always knew was there.

Still there’s the occasional craving but don’t let that discourage you for these are easy to deal with and now feel more like an impulse then an urge. And as I have always known, they do pass quickly. They are nothing more then a memory of a past life that I no longer live.

So don’t ever think that you can’t do this. Never believe even for a moment that it’s not in you to win the war with yourself. All it takes is the desire to be free and the determination that will feed that desire. It’s such a wonderful reality that we face once we do become free from ourselves. Once we understand that we don’t smoke anymore. Once we know in our hearts that we will win!

So take each of those days for what they are. A day closer to happiness. A day closer to freedom. A day closer to the beginning of your future. It’s up to you to determine what that future will be. And I now know from experience that what you do today will build your tomorrow.

If you can just get through those first hard days then there really is a bright future out there. This is the reward for what your accomplishing. And it’s a reward like no other! So always look to those days ahead. Always see the reward that is your freedom!

Here’s to that wonderful smoke free future that awaits you!

Chuck

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