Well, the journey has begun. Smoked my last cigarette at eight-fifteen last night. Woke up this morning and applied the first patch. As expected, the patch does not stop the urges. It simply makes them a little more tolorable. But the day has started out fantastic! 11 1/2 hours smoke free so far.
I went outside with my morning coffee just as I'd planned during my preperations expecting to want that morning cigarette. Nope. What happened instead was I looked at those glorious mountains and saw them in a new light. It was as if they had tranformed but in reality I know it was me who had transformed. As I stared at the wonder of nature, four deer walked right up to the patio and looked at me for a moment, as if they knew that they were looking at something that had changed.
Nature always seeks harmony and when one begins to create a more harmonious condition within themselves, she's right there to help! Soon I'll be heading off to work for my first smoke free day in a long, long time.
Will I be tempted? Nope. Will I feel horrible? Nope. Will I crave that rediculous weed that has dominated my life for a long time? Probably, but I can feel that I will see just how rediculous that craving is. I've always believed that the first day will be the hardest. But so far it's no different then I planned for it to be.
I go forth into a world that is a new beginning today and I do not fear it. Instead I embrace this day! This is the day when I prove to myself that my committment is real. This is the day that I walk into a life of freedom. This is the day that I take back my life!
You know what? I think this is going to be a good day indeed . . .
