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Day seven

Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 Feb 28, 2011

 Wow! A week now for sure. What a wonderful thing to wake up to! Yesterday the cravings were all but nonexistent. Even during the stress of moving the giant trailor with the little jeep, I never really felt a craving at all. I know that there may be some down the road if I let mey guard down but I do not fear them. Just as I never feared the quitting process itself.

 Quitting really is a process I think. One that can be studied and read about, even before you have to go through it yourself. But there's nothing like living it to know it. With each step we take, so long as we learn, the battle becomes easier. Our minds begin to understand that this is the new future. And with that acceptence comes an easier ride.

 The sooner we can convince ourselves that this is the way it's going to be, the sooner we can move on to step two which is learning our new shiny lives without cigarettes. This is something that is important to remember. Sure, it's a journey and we have to be on guard all the time at first but with time it becomes a "habit" not to smoke. We quit reaching for the pack that isn't there.

 And once we know that this is our future, then our minds begin looking to that future rather then dwelling on a loss that really isn't a loss at all. Our internal battle is won the day we know that cigarettes are no longer a part of us for how can the cravings be difficult if we know in our hearts that we don't want to smoke. They simply become something to laugh at.

 The day that we stop taking our cravings so serious is the day that we can move on. The little discomfort is well worth the benefits. Life is a great choice to make over smoking.

 And with each passing day, with each new day of discovery I'll know that the internal battle is won. The war within myself is a thing of the past and those cravings that thought they were going to get me will be all but a memory. Just as I always knew they would be!

Now, on to week two . . .

 Well, I'm really not sure which day this is in the journey. You see, when I was prepping someone (I wish I could remember who) suggested that I quit the night before so I have a good eight hours already under my belt for quit day. (Thanks whoever you are!) This seemed like a good idea to me so the original time that I quit was at eight fifteen on the 20th of this month.

 I guess the time I quit doesn't really matter so long as I did and I stay quit! Today I'm going to be moving a giant travel trailer with my little jeep. Done it before but it's aleays a stressful time when I do it and I always had them cigarettes to help me deal with the stress. Am I worried about my quit? Not in the least!

 Every time I do something that may have been a smoking activity before, I look at it as opportunity to strengthen my quit rather then some thing I fear. You see, I made peace with myself during my prep time and lost all of my fear of quitting. To me this is one of the most important steps that one can take when they quit. The determination must be there but if we fear our quit then that just adds undue stress to a situation that is already stressful.

 I guess what I'm trying to say is that quitting doesn't have to be hard! Don't get me wrong, I find the cravings to be an uncomfortable experience just like everybody else. But there's something deep inside of me that tells me that these cravings do pass. This is my mantra so to speak every time I get one of these things. They really serve no useful purpose so why dwell on them.

 If you don't ignore them then you can actually feel them pass. Soon it becomes a habit to just let them go and move on. And most of us here are probably pretty good at habits. It's the ones that we develop after we quit that are the important ones.These are the ones that reinforce our quit I think. But if we dwell to much on the discomforts of our quit rather then see it for what it really is, a physical reaction to the brains belief that it needs nicotine, then things can get out of control in a more negative direction.

 And when we quit what we really need is the positive side of it rather then the negative. So today I will embrace each moment that I feel the brain reacting to the lack of nicotine and learn from it. Build on it and with each time that I build my new positive habits, I believe that everything will just get easier. It'll just fall into place like that puzzle I dreamed of last night and once we are at peace with our decisions, there's nowhere to go but UP!

Have a wonderful smoke free day! 

Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011

Perception

Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 Feb 26, 2011

Perception is something that our minds create for us, and a lot of times it’s how we see things that really matter. For instance, some would see a winter storm as a nuisance.

But rather then look at the discomforts of the winter storm, I tend to look at it a little different. I see the snow flakes that remind me of how different we all are as humans and yet we, like the snow can lay down that same blanket of beauty when we merge together, forming a beautiful scene that would captivate all who saw it.

I see the majestic snow capped peaks of the Rockies poking their heads out of the clouds and shimmering in the sunlight as the storm clears, reminding me that for many there is hope just over the horizon and that this hope can always carry us through no matter how bad it might seem.

I see the pine trees covered in the beautiful white powder that has chosen to fall upon them, reminding me that things do not always happen to us by choice but rather by the hand that nature deals us.

I see the little snow caves that the snow drifts create, reminding me of a kind of warmth that lives even in the darkest of days. A place of peace and beauty that we as humans could never create and yet at times we can live this very wonder simply by believing.

I see the shapes and designs that the snow brings us as it falls to the ground and this reminds me of how a seeming chaos can create a world of wonder.

So once again I must say that for me it’s not really what happens to us that matters so much as how we perceive those things. What matters most is what we can bring out of the problems that live in our lives. Pearls of wisdom to guild us through the rest of our days.

I perceive myself as a non smoker. A person who is winning a hard fought battle to come out on the other side and perceive the world as it really is yet free of the shackles of my addiction.

How do you perceive yourselves?

I can't believe that it's day six of my quit already! I tend to celebrate each smoke free day in my life but there's something new to celebrate tomorrow. At 8:15 P.M. tomorrow, I can stop counting just days. I'll have the first WEEK under my belt! This is an moment that is important to me because I won't be counting just the days. I'll be counting weeks as well!

 Yesterday was kind of a coast day for me because it was one of the easier days since my quit. It was a day when I was able to smell the smoke on other's breaths and wonder or rather know that this is what I smelled like before. BEFORE being the key word. Must be a lot of polite non smokers out there, cause no one ever told me that I stunk. Guess we have to discover this for ourselves in most cases!

 I had a strange dream last night. I was putting a gigantic puzzle together all night long and every time I got close to finishing it, it grew bigger and more parts needed to be added. So I kept going, never wanting to give up on this puzzle. The room was huge and so was the puzzle. Soon I was walking on the puzzle table itself to place the pieces into it.

 I kept thinking, "Is this thing ever going to end?" as I'd walk over to find the next piece and place it into the puzzle. For some reason I really wanted to see this thing completed. I woke up once and guess what? When I went back to sleep, there was the puzzle again! "Dang it! Guess I gotta finish it!" I thought to myself. And so it continued on.

 I began working more frantically on the thing and never really got it put together. When I woke I seemed to know what the dream was all about. My addiction! The way I saw this dream was my mind once again working out the pieces of my addiction. It grew every time I got close to the end, strengthening my resolve to finish it. The closer I got to completion, the bigger it got.

 I realized that the picture itself wasn't what was important. What was important was my resolve to work on it forever if need be. A task that may never really end but one that becomes easier over time. No matter how much I tried to fit the pieces, there really was no right way to do it for you see, the path to freedom takes resolve. The ability to continue on the path building on each piece until the picture is complete no matter what it takes or how long it takes.

 In the end I think the pieces do fall into place eventually. And every step of the way the pieces do create that picture that we all long to see. You know, the one without cigarettes in it . . .

 This is day five for me but as usual, I think I'll blog about day four.

 I have to tell you, I spend a lot of time on this site but yesterday I realized that I can't always be here. I have to get out in the real world and experience life as it really is. So, I went and bought a piece of furniture. You know, the kind that you have to put together with those crazy instructions that really make no sense.

 And I discovered as I began putting this thing together that this was a trigger for me. What a suprise huh? Still, when I did my prep work, I never thought of so many of the triggers that I have. Sometimes you just have to live life to discover them. The thing is that every time you do discover one and cope with it, it strengthens the quit, for me at least.

 This is because first of all, I became aware that this was a trigger in the first place. I didn't run away from the trigger but instead embraced it and fought my way through the urge that it brought on. Which brings me to the second thing that I discovered.

 The urge seemed to last forever! This made no sense to me so I thought about it a bit. I reached inside myself and realized that the urge had indeed passed. There was no real physical manifestaion of it. It was essentially in my mind. And I realized that in past attempts at quitting cold turkey (wich never worked for me) that this very same thing happened to me. I never realized that the urges passed with time and as such, the entire day seemed like one giant urge!

 I think what was really happening was that when I got my first craving, my mind somehow convinced me that the craving was not over. Then when I got the next one, it intensified what I already believed was there. By the end of the day I would be a basket case and I always gave in.

 A big part of this was lack of knowledge I do believe. Because with this quit, (aided by nicotine patches) I know that the cravings only last a short amount of time. Yesterday I had to reach inside myself to realize this but it did work! I am still an EX. I will fight this battle to the end and I WILL WIN!

 There is not a single doubt in my mind and there is no fear. I am so glad I took the time to prepare for this quit and that I never doubted in my ability to do this. I've come a long way since my first day when I decided to do this. The day that I was unreasonably terrified to do this thing. The day that my mind screamed at me and tried to convince me that there is no life without cigarettes!

 This in itself empowers me to be smoke free for the rest of my life!

Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011

Thank you!!

Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 Feb 25, 2011

When one travels on a path that is unfamiliar, there is fear of the unknown. It’s like walking in the darkness, unsure of which way to go. Each step is uncertain and at times one wonders how they will ever reach the end. How they will ever find a light in the darkness.

This in itself can make one lose their confidence for they must concentrate on the next faltering step, hoping they don’t slip off of the path. With each twist and turn that is faced one tends to look back instead of going forward for they know the world they started from. This is the familiar ground on which they have traveled.

But if by some good fortune they see a light ahead on the path it gives them hope. They realize that someone else has already walked this path and then one hurries to catch up to that light. Soon they are within the ring of that light and can see the path before them. But amazingly, the one who possesses the light stops and let’s you catch up.

You get there and there is the friendly wave of another, beckoning you forward. You rush to meet them and find out that they are willing to walk the path with you. They are willing to share their experience and knowledge of the path and all that lies ahead. This propels you onward into the new light and you realize that though it is a strange path your walking, you’re no longer alone.

The confidence builds with each step that you take for you have someone to lean on. Someone that is there for you not because they have to be but rather because they WANT to be. And when you trip, they pick you up, dust you off and help you to once again get your footing.

You look around and notice that there are many others walking the path with you for they too had been lost in the darkness. Together you negotiate the twisted path to it’s end. Every now and then, one strays from the path but the guide that you found will have no part of that. He comes back to find the one who lost his way and brings him back to the path, knowing that with a little help they can find the end. With a little encouragement, they will reach the golden light that awaits them on the other side.

They tell you of all the benefits and joys that await you there. And with the confidence of others, with the belief of others that you will not falter, you do reach that end! You reach the rainbow of the rest of your lives. Sure you’re the one that has to walk the path but never does it have to be alone. Never does it have to be scary. For there are so many willing to help and each victory is a victory for all.

This is why I come to this web site. To take my path with others. To learn from the experiences and knowledge of those who have already been there. For this I thank all of you for without you, I might reach the end of my journey but it would be so very hard. And why do it the hard way if you don’t have to. So thank you, thank you and thank you!!!

Well, I finally had some pretty strong urges yesterday afternoon. Even using the patch the urges do come. I think this is because although the brain is still recieving nicotine, it doesn't get it in the large doses like a cigarette would give it. There's no peaks and valleys in the way it's delivered to the brain and as such, the urges can still be strong though not as strong as they would be when quitting cold turkey.

 Still, even with the stronger urges I knew that they would pass and of course they did though they were more frequent then usual for me so far. A little discomfort for a short amount of time is well worth the benefits of quitting I think. I used it as a learning experience and practiced with something I used to do while smoking. Barbequing! While in the midst of one of these urges, I went out and cooked some burgers for everyone. I consider this to be positive reinforcement as I continue on the path.

 To pasify myself, I carried a pen around for a while. Not really pretending to be smoking but rather just holding it in my hand. Keeping my fingers busy as I cooked. The bottom line is that I do know how to deal with these moments in my new life. To me, training for a quit and getting all the knowledge you can before quitting is a crucial part of success when quitting.

 And then last night I had a dream where I was fixing up a friends house. There were lot's of people there and many of them asked me if I wanted to go have a cigarette. I would think to myself in the dream that it's about the right time and then would remember that I had quit. I would tell these people this and they would look at me and say "Really?" I almost always replied, "Yes, really."

 Everywhere I went through this house, people would pop up smoking. Some came out of closets and some even appeared sticking their heads out of the crawl space. There were a bunch openings in this house. When I woke up, this dream cracked me up! I found it to be quite halarious. What was my mind trying to tell me?

 I think it was telling me that it now understands that I'm serious about this quit. My brain was working out some final details within itself. I feel as strong as ever about my quit today. Everything that happens to me simply reinfoces my resolve. It strengthens me every time I shrug off an urge. I'm learning how to walk instead of crawl in my new smoke free world.

And I have no fear for I know I'm going to win this! Now, on to day four . . .

Yesterday was an interesting day. In fact, every day is as I take each faltering step toward my goal. It’s much like climbing a mountain. From the bottom the summit looks so very far away, and it seems like it will be an almost impossible task to get there. And there is fear when you first think of climbing that mountain. Fear of the unknown. Fear that you might not make the top.

 

And then the first faltering step is taken. The feet are planted and again, we look at the summit. It doesn’t seem much closer and yet, we know it is for we have begun the journey. Then we take the next faltering steps into the unknown, never believing that we won’t reach that summit. Never doubting in ourselves.

 

With each step that we take, we become more confident and believe in ourselves even more. Our steps become swifter and yes, that summit is even closer now. Soon we will reach the top of this long, hard mountain. It just takes patience and a will to scramble through the boulder fields of life. A will to climb over the very obstacles that life throws at us and a will to be free.

 

The desire to reach that summit must always be present in order to reach it and as we pass over each obstacle. As we scramble through each boulder field and reach the other side, our strength grows as does our belief in ourselves that we will indeed reach that summit.

 

I will always keep my eye on that summit. I will always see the completion of my goal and I will do this with no fear for my journey has begun. Day three is here! I’ve learned how to climb during the past two days. I’ve learned that the determination is there, the will to achieve the goal of improving my life and every day that I put behind me on this journey is a day that will get me closer to my personal summit.

 

Right now, I’m learning how to climb. Soon I’ll know how to face all of life’s challenges without ever thinking about a cigarette. It just takes time and a will to succeed. And when I at last reach the freedom of my goal then the way I got there; those hard days that taught me will be ingrained in my very soul. This is why I’ll always keep an eye on that summit. Because I know in my heart that when I reach that summit and look back on the path I took that it will all be but a memory.

 

And so one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, one obstacle at a time I continue on . . .

Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011

Nicodemon?

Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 Feb 22, 2011

 I've read many blogs that mention the nicodemon and wondered about this. Don't get me wrong, this isn't a cry for help. It's just an observation within myself that I thought I'd share. I wondered where this nicodemon dwelled and if it was ready to creep up on me. I'm very good at controling or ignoring my urges to be sure but still, is this insidious little creature there?

 I do a lot of self reflection all of the time and I stopped for a moment to reflect on how I'm doing today. And I think I found it. It's not a creature that lives in the forefront of thought. No, it lives in the background like a soft and subtle little voice waiting for a chance to move into the foreground if you let your guard down. If you open the gate that it needs. It's  the part of addiction that is always there even years after we quit.

 It's the one that get's some of us to slip. And yet it is a part of our own minds. The part that is created by a long addiction. It manifests itself as tension or a simple thought of the past. Of how it used to be. It's the part of us that makes us think that smoking was so wonderful. The part that says, "You know you can just have one."

 The part that fights with NOPE and makes us think that we are able to "enjoy " just that one little puff. That it's perfectly harmless. I believe we all beat our little nicodemon over time and with practice but it's good to know that he's there, ready to become a giant creature instead of that small voice the moment we let him.

 Or maybe this is just the ranting of a person on the second day of their quit. I really don't know but I do know that I'll be keeping him locked away for the rest of my life.

Yesterday was my first smoke free day. It was a day of discovery. A day of challenge and a day of understanding. It started with a wonderful encounter with nature wich I spoke of yesterday. When I left for work, I kept coming back to my room. I was forgetting something and for the longest time I couldn't figure out what it was. It was the cigarettes of course. I realized this when I tapped my pocket and the old familiar shape of that pack of smokes wasn't there.

 I smiled to myself and went happily out the door, for this was the first day of my new life. This was my first day smoke free. The day went on and I never really had the urges I'd expected or perhaps I did and just chose to ignore them. Of this I can't be sure. Later in the day I did feel one of those urges after our job was done. This was a time when I always smoked before. Actually, it was more of an impulse and as such I hadn't prepared for this particular urge.

 When I felt it I smiled, knowing that I was ready for it. And just as expected, it passed. I drove home and felt a few urges in the evening, when I used to smoke the most. I was mostly able to ignore them but when I couldn't I conce again told myself that they would quickly pass. And of course they did.

 To me, using patches to help myself quit is like quitting with training wheels. I'm learning how to live a smoke free life while getting a little help to control the urges. Still, this would have been hard had I not prepared for this day. If it wasn't clear in my mind that this was something I was going to do and there was no other option. It proves to me how important prearation and a good quit plan is.

 Every person is different. Some of us need to start out with training wheels in order to succeed and some don't. Some must prepare and become one with themselves and some can just say, "I quit!" In my opinion there is no right or wrong way to quit so long as it works. And once we get past that first day and have something to build on, we build on that. Once there is no fear in our hearts, the journey becomes easier.

 If my week continues to go as well as yesterday did then I will send my 21MG patches back and ask for the 14MG ones. As jonescarp mentioned, there's no reason to become addicted to the patches themselves and as such I will shorten the duration of their use as much as I can. I heard you jonescarp! I will step down as quickly as I can until I am nicotine fee. The true and final day of freedom.

 I know I can do this because I no longer fear quitting. I'm at peace with myself and happy to live a smoke free life. Now on to day two . . .

Well, the journey has begun. Smoked my last cigarette at eight-fifteen last night. Woke up this morning and applied the first patch. As expected, the patch does not stop the urges. It simply makes them a little more tolorable. But the day has started out fantastic! 11 1/2 hours smoke free so far.

 I went outside with my morning coffee just as I'd planned during my preperations expecting to want that morning cigarette. Nope. What happened instead was I looked at those glorious mountains and saw them in a new light. It was as if they had tranformed but in reality I know it was me who had transformed. As I stared at the wonder of nature, four deer walked right up to the patio and looked at me for a moment, as if they knew that they were looking at something that had changed.

 Nature always seeks harmony and when one begins to create a more harmonious condition within themselves, she's right there to help! Soon I'll be heading off to work for my first smoke free day in a long, long time.

 Will I be tempted? Nope. Will I feel horrible? Nope. Will I crave that rediculous weed that has dominated my life for a long time? Probably, but I can feel that I will see just how rediculous that craving is. I've always believed that the first day will be the hardest. But so far it's no different then I planned for it to be.

 I go forth into a world that is a new beginning today and I do not fear it. Instead I embrace this day! This is the day when I prove to myself that my committment is real. This is the day that I walk into a life of freedom. This is the day that I take back my life!

 You know what? I think this is going to be a good day indeed . . .

 Well, the day has arrived at last. Tonight I will smoke my last cigarette at approx. 8:00. I've actually been looking forward to this day, to the moment, to the beginning! Yesterday I spent the entire day reading and thinking about this monumental moment in my life. And by the end of the day I was well, nervous.

 Then I went to sleep and all night I dreamed about fixing things. I fixed walls, televisions, radio's, computers, you name it. I fixed them all and in the dreams I was very happy with the results of my actions. And when I woke up, there was no fear of what I was about to do. None at all. Not even the slightest doubt was in my mind about this moment.

 I believe that my mind absorbed the crash course I gave it the day before. It accepted that this is the new course of my life and because of this, the fear of quitting simply and completely vanished! The thought process went on all through the night, realizing that I was fixing something that really needed to be fixed. There was an understanding created with myself and because of this, fear could no longer be an option.

 I went to the store today and bought some tea for those nights when I want to go out and look at those mountains without a cigarette. I bought healthy snacks for the breaks we take at work and I've got lots of bottles of water ready to take with me. I'm as ready as I'm ever going to be for this. In the morning when the first craving hits, I'll remember the mornings when I practiced just for this. I'll know that it's a reality that the cravings will pass. I'll know that the first steps are the hardest and I will remember that any discomfort will only be temporary. I'll remember that I am fixing something that must be fixed!

 I'll take my first steps into a smoke free world and I will do this without fear for I am ready!

NO FEAR!!!

 Well, the day draws ever nearer and I still do not fear it. This is a day to prepare. To reflect on what my new life will be like. A day to see myself facing the challenges of everyday life smoke free. I started with something I haven't done since I first decided to quit. I haven't smoked in four hours. I've felt the urges come and go and each time this happens I've learned what might be my enemy in two days. But also, I've reinforced in my mind that I know how to cope with these urges. I'm turning my enemy into a thing I can understand and with understanding comes strength.

 I know that even though I'm using the nicotine patch that the urges will still come and go. But the thing is that I have an understanding of them and I've practiced how to deal with them. This in itself takes a powerful weapon away from my addiction. This is my goal for today. To first understand the weapons that an addiction uses to keep us from our goal and second to know how to combat those internal weapons.

 This is why I do not fear my new life. This is why I can instead find comfort in the fact that I won't be smoking. My path is clear. I know that I will follow it to the best of my abilities. This is the choice I've made for myself. No one made it for me and as such I shall be true to myself. Today I gain knowledge of my inner self. Today I reafirm my future.

 I'm climbing that mountain right now. Gaining strength with each step that I take. Flowing above the clouds and into the sunshine of my smoke free future. There's a rainbow at the top of that mountain and at it's base is the pot of gold, filled with my future. It's filled with life and it's filled with love for you see, by climbing this particular mountain I am insuring that I will see all that I love for just a little longer. And I'm proving one important thing to myself. I LOVE LIFE! I LOVE HEALTH! And soon I'll be flying off that mountain like a bird, free of an addiction that I don't need.

 Ah. Another urge has just passed, proving to me once again that though it must be one step at a time, each step gets me closer to my freedom. . .

 Well, it's getting closer with each passing day. The day of freedom that I so long to feel! The day when I take my life back from myself! I'm actually looking forward to it though every now and then the mind tries to rebel. But it's so easy to change one's thought patterns when what we are doing is something positive.

 I found out that on my quit date, I may be travelling to work in another city. That may bother some but to me I see it as opportunity. You see, I've already beat the trigger that's associated with driving. It's one of the first one's I worked on and found it easy. And on top of that, I won't have any cigarettes with me. So really all I have to do is not buy any. That will be easy I think.

 Even though my partner is an avid smoker, he won't get to me for you see I'm committed to this quit and have already decided that if I can't be around others who smoke then I won't be able to win this battle. I'm doing this for me and not for anyone else. And he's the type that will at least roll down the window when he smokes.

 Rather then look at what I'm missing I think watching him smoke will make me realize what I'm achieving. It will reinforce my reasons for wanting to quit. And since there's really no perfect time to quit I feel that attacking my quit head on and facing life's little challenges on my first day will be nothing but helpful to me down the road for you see, if I can get over the first little hurdle on a day that might not be the easiest then it will reinforce my mind that I can get through any day without the nasty irritating cigarettes.

Still looking forward to a smoke free life!

 The day draws nearer and the funny thing is that the wait is something that is working for me. I rarely feel an urge to smoke anymore but when I do, I wait for the urge to pass before I do have that cigarette. Some may wonder why I continue smoking at all if this is the case.

 I think I've prepared my mind for this particular date and as such I have accepted that this is the day that I quit smoking forever. It's instilled in my very soul. And soon I will prove to myself that actions do speak louder then words. I no longer have a mental picture of myself as a smoker. Instead, I see myself as one who is climbing that mountain, eager to see the top of it.

 The fear of quitting is fading away like a dream that I've awaikened from. In four days I will wake to a new me. One that knows that life can be different. One who cares more and more about my future with each passing day for you see, quitting is a temporary situation. One that takes time, but a situation that does end. I just have to get over that hump. And then it's all a matter of living the life I really want to live. The one that I see in my mind's eye. The one that doesn't have a cigarette in it.

Well, it's getting closer to the big day at last. All of my excuses to not do this have been exhausted. All my reasons for wanting to quit have come to the forefront of my mind. In five days I will wake up smoke free. And I find that I'm explaining to myself all the time how to achieve this wonderful goal.

 As an example, I live at the base of several fourteen thousand foot peaks in Colorado. I always go outside and smoke a cigarette, looking at the beauty of nature as I create a kind of destruction of nature within myself. Last night as I stared at this glorious scene I asked myself, "So what are you going to do now instead of smoking a cigarette as you enjoy the beauty of nature?"

 Thing is, I found an answer. A nice hot cup of decaffinated tea. It was such a simple answer and one that my brain accepted. A moment of realization that yes, there are so many other simple things that can be enjoyed withouit destroying the body. I really don't have to have a cigarette to enjoy the little things that I've always loved.

 And in the morning it will be a nice cup of coffee on the patio to start my day. Just the coffee and nothing else for nothing else is ever really needed. Am I nervous about my quit date? Well, maybe just a little. Am I scared of losing that old friend? I really don't need that kind of friend. Am I going to thrash around like some kind of lunatic when the big day comes? I doubt it. I will occupy my mind with life rather then death.

 Don't get me wrong. I don't expect it to be easy. Giving up an addiction never is. But I will come here in my weak moments. I will get through those short urges, knowing that they will pass quickly. And I will learn life without cigarettes as I use my NRT's. And then soon those will be gone as well and I will at last be free!

 This is what I'm really looking forward to. The freedom!

Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011

Me again

Posted by Chuck_Quit_2-20-2011 Feb 14, 2011

Hello all,

 I've been absent for a while because of a move. Moving is sooo much fun! I know that all the stuff I have is important mostly because I haven't seen a lot of it for at least a year and forgot I had it :)

 Because I feel the preperation for quitting is importantant, I reset my quit date three different times but now that's all over and I will not be resetting my quit date this time. Feb. 21 will be the day. I'm planning on using NRT's. I know a lot of you are not fans of this type of quitting but I know from past experience that it does work for me.

 I guess that sounds kind of funny that I know this from the past but the reality is that I relapsed several years ago after quitting for over a year when a life partner died. Sadly, I never looked back until now. But that is the past and now's the time to look to the future!

 Even though I've reset my quit date more then once, I've still kept my addiction down to 8 to ten cigarettes a day, reducing my intake from 35+ a day so I haven't gone backwards. Still, I haven't moved forward until now.

 Looking forward first to the day that I will be smoke free and then to the day that I'll also be nicotine free.

Chuck