Yesterday I wrote a blog about my determination when it came to quitting. In that blog I mentioned that I had held my cigarette intake at 12 cigarettes for two days and was kind of concerned that I wasn't continuing to reduce my consumption.
Well, at the end of the day I discovered that I had reduced my intake by two cigarettes. For the first time, I didn't need two pack tracker sheets to tally my smokes for the day. Funny thing is that I didn't do this intentionally. In other words, I felt no different then I did the last two days when I smoked twelve.
I think this is a case where my mind is accepting what my mind is saying. May not make sense to some of you but what I'm realizing is that I'm beginning to to win this internal war with myself. The internal screaming for a cigarette is becomming less and less intense every day and now I'm finding it much easier to go much longer without one. In fact, it's just happening without my even thinking about it.
I think part of the reason for this is how serious I'm taking this quit. I go to sleep thinking not about a cigarette but rather about quitting. And when I wake up in the morning my first thought again is not about wanting a cigarette but rather about quitting. This kind of reinforcement is causing my mind to change it's old patterns of thinking. I'm becomming less and less dependent on this addiction with each passing day. If this trend continues I see no problem staying quit when the time comes.
And it all started with a little knowledge. A little work and a trust in myself that I can do it. So all I can say is that if your prepping to quit, give it all you got! Use this time to your advantage by teaching your mind how it's going to be in the end. Teach your mind how wonderful life can be without that cigarette. I know it might sound silly because we're trying so hard to NOT think about our addiction but I really believe that the more you analyze yourself and learn yourself the easier it becomes to talk to yourself effectively.
Perhaps I'm wrong. I don't really know yet as I haven't quit. . .
