I finally got to sleep and did get a good deep sleep and woke up just after 2:00pm. I went out for a drive in the countryside and put my window down to get the full effect of the drive. Then I went to Walmart and got me some Hershey’s kisses milk chocolate and some sugar free Swiss Miss hot chocolate and some tiny marshmallows to put in it. I just gave myself what I needed time to myself away from everything just me. I woke up feeling stunned still at getting triggered like that yesterday. This was a very loud message to me about keeping my quit safe at all times. Staying busy was the best thing that helped me, going to my quit kit, praying, blogging last night and getting help from all of you. This time when I got triggered it really had hold of me like I started to feel like I had lost my way and nothing mattered anymore but something in me still cared enough to not give up and so I held on to that feeling and fought and came here to blog about it. I was really losing it yesterday but I came through it and I want to thank you all for helping me. I could feel all of you talking to me when I was losing it yesterday before I even blogged and so I came here and told you all about me being triggered. I even thought to myself no I can handle this without blogging I don’t need to blog and then I thought practice what you preach Christine get your buns online and blog to get some backup so I did. Thomas was quick as lightning to come and help me first and then more came fast as could be and then I felt like I was not alone anymore going through all of this I had all of you when I had no help at home. I feel so grateful that I have all of you here and I hope all of you stay and never leave. Today was a better day I held on and I still have my quit. Thank you all for being here this is the place for people like us that need support for this addiction.
Hugs to you all I hope you all have a great night.
