How do I stop the cigarette addiction? Most days I can hardly get going and get dressed and get functional.
I sit in a daze all day, as long as I'm on the computer I am ok. Why do I smoke? Why do I want to stop?
I somehow let my smoking life take over. I have to actually get this!! After Brian I just feel like I'm just going through the motions of living. So now is my question, why does it really matter? It does, I know I matter to some, but I still don't feel worthy. I feel like I am weak when it comes to smoking, and yet one day I had it going well, and then screwed up.
Put it this way, I don't need cigarettes to numb me up, I am already numb. Why do I want to quit?
I just want to relieve my mental torture, and shi* or get off the pot. Either you smoke or you don't.
I've succumbed to having two cigarettes every morning. Tomorrow I wake up fresh, I won't want to face the day smokefree but I will. There are a lot of newbies right now. I am a newbie/oldie. Dear god, give me strength, to live my life and not a lie.
please, I need to do a 180 here and change my life, I have a lot of fear about quitting. I have fear I will loose it completely.
