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Thoughts and Memories

Posted by Christine13 May 29, 2020

It's always my thoughts that get me into trouble with my quit and powerful memories from the past.  It's junkie thinking, and I know that, every quit I have there comes a time I see a movie going in my head about smoking a cigarette.  It's time to replace that movie in my head with something more positive like seeing myself outside and gazing up at the leaves on the big tree on my deck.  Then there's the sneaky me, who says "Go ahead, no one will know."  Trouble is "I know."  So shut up brain.  Come on, you "CAN" get through it!!

Christine13

Just for today!

Posted by Christine13 May 9, 2020

Mother's Day coming up tomorrow.  I am so fortunate to be the Mom of two loving daughters, and a wonderful Mom who is 90 years old.  Tomorrow I will be alone as my oldest daughter is working the night shift.  She is a Mom too, and my grandson at age 17 years old is giving her plenty of grief, with drugs and failing his year at school.  I was not a perfect Mom, neither was mine, and neither are my daughters.  I was always drugged up with pyhch medications back when they were growing up, and I did a ton of therapy.  I was lucky, because I loved my girls, and gave them good moral values, they are both hard working, and both have very kind hearts. I always feel so bad on Mother's Day each year, that I couldn't be more, and do more, but somehow I held this family together in spite of mental illness and also worked part-time when I could.  Also Brian's and my what would be 46th anniversary is on Monday.  I won't be sad tho, we had 43 years together.  I wasn't the perfect wife either.  So just for today, I give Kudos to all those Mom's who did the very best that they could under their circumstances.  Just for today, I won't smoke!!  I am still a work in progress even at 65 years old.  I am grateful for my family, and all the Mom's.  Furbaby Mom's and to those who have lost theirs and still have theirs.

Ok, well, it's been awhile since I blogged.  Things here in Manitoba are good, not that many cases or new cases.

My folks are coming over tonight for dinner, and we will social distance at my house.  I love EX and all the support here.

Love you guys, I'm not perfect, but I want the perfect quit.

Keep on striving everyone!!  Each day is a blessing!!

xo

Chrissie

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