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New Hope

Christine13
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Hi, the last week or so I've been feeling really depressed and down on myself.  Then yesterday I talked to our Marilyn on the phone.  She perked me up and I woke up to a better day, beginning with getting on and keeping on.

All I can say, is when you are down on yourself it doesn't help to beat yourself up further.  I continue to do the best I can do, each day.  I don't know where this is going, but I thank god for true friends, and the ability to get up and function each day.  Spring is a tough time for me, the changing of seasons, and Brian isn't here.  I do look forward to warmer days and sitting out on the deck and doing some social distancing visiting.  I know smoking isn't and hasn't helped me any.

i keep foraging ahead.  Trying when there is almost no will left.  I won't give up hope tho, it's all up to me!! 

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I'm a widow now, my husband passed away January 1, 2018 He died of COPD, and pre leukemia and the flu. He quit smoking 15 years ago which gave him extra time. I am a mother, and grandmother. I have smoked for 47 years. I am going to have my forever quit and I'm doing it for me and my two daughters so I can live longer and be with them. I like to read, swim, garden, crochet, paint and doodle. I also enjoy walking and visiting with friends and family. I am 100% making this my last quit. I have been in denial about what smoking has done to me and my kids. I must make a new life for myself and it doesn't include cigarettes. I may already have COPD, but have not been officially diagnosed.