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Dark day

Christine13
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Hi, today was a day without hope.  Going to scatter part of my husband Brian's ashes on May 11th at the park.  Couldn't arrange a time with family so I will do it alone there on what would have been our 45th wedding anniversary.

Will hopefully spread the rest of his ashes in July.  I am alone.  I can't say when I'll be back.  I am hoping someday soon.  Haven't been able to keep quit.  Altho I've tried everything on God's green earth to do it.  Falling here, and failing.  Tomorrow is a new day.  I look forward to it, altho, every day seems like Ground Hog day, you know the movie with Bill Murray.  Each day he tries to better himself until he wakes up with his dream girl.  I am always striving to better myself. 

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I'm a widow now, my husband passed away January 1, 2018 He died of COPD, and pre leukemia and the flu. He quit smoking 15 years ago which gave him extra time. I am a mother, and grandmother. I have smoked for 47 years. I am going to have my forever quit and I'm doing it for me and my two daughters so I can live longer and be with them. I like to read, swim, garden, crochet, paint and doodle. I also enjoy walking and visiting with friends and family. I am 100% making this my last quit. I have been in denial about what smoking has done to me and my kids. I must make a new life for myself and it doesn't include cigarettes. I may already have COPD, but have not been officially diagnosed.