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I'm ok -- really?

Posted by Christine13 Nov 29, 2018

All my stress and anxiety today about going and trying to drive after 4-5 inches of snow here in winnipeg.

I HAVE to get to my sister's tonight to celebrate my Mom's 89th Birthday.  Tried to pre-arrange a cab for tonight, but as usual when I want to take a cab things are super busy in the city and I may not be able to get one. May have to white knuckle it and suck it up and drive tonight.  I'm scared!!  I know I won't smoke.  Really all this anxiety about going out for a fun night. Ok, Chris, put on your big girl panties and face your F.E.A.R.


Nothing Better!!

Posted by Christine13 Nov 24, 2018

Nothing better than 10 days smoke free!!  I am learning to face my fears here, and there are many.  I can do all things through God who strengthens me!! I keep going by delaying, delaying, and getting through the day.  I am actually having a mello relaxing day here!!  It's all good.  I fall down, I pick myself up and keep going - because I have no choice there!


ok, so what's missing

Posted by Christine13 Nov 20, 2018

It's not my smokes, I am grateful to say.  I had a hair stylist appointment today, and i think I like the cut and colour.

Hadn't been there since last February, so I think I deserved the treat.  I came home, ordinarily it would be a date night with Brian and he would give me the critique on my hair and then he would take me out for dinner.  I came home to an empty house today, but all was okay,

because he is where he needs to be, and so am I.  I did not miss lighting up and swallowing my feelings and dignity.

Tomorrow smoker's help line will call, and I'll be able to say I did NOT buy cigarettes.  It's all a series of firsts,without him, and my smokes. and my biggest reason now to stay smoke free is it stinks!!  I don't want to stink anymore.  I am working on day 7 today.

I actually want this to work now.   

Just wanted to update you on how things are going.  Water and plumbing issues, been without water for four days now.  Pipe leaking in the basement under the water meter.  City had trouble on their end turning off the water outside, and had to do a dig on my neighbour's property.  ( We are in a quadruplex, and the turn off valve is on his property Anyway they got that done yesterday and left the water on.  I had called a plumber to make an appointment for today, they said they could only get here between 12 and 2:00 so I booked the appointment. That was THE ONLY appointment I could get!! City came out to turn off water this morning so I'd be ready, and neighbour yelled at city guy, then I yelled at anal retentive neighbour, and he yelled at me, he yelled where is your plumber, I explained he would be here this afternoon and city guy said he'd come back to turn water off in a couple of hours.  I just pray he does come back.  Had a fight with the city last night cause they said they couldn't come till Saturday.  Then they agreed to come today and neighbour pitches his fit!!  Neighbour is a bully and I won't be bullied!!  Anyway, I'm staying strong and not smoking over this.  I'm praying for peace and understanding between my neighbour and myself.  I am praying it will all get done and that I'll have water tonight.

I am praying city comes back before noon to turn the water off.  I am praying for no smoking for myself today.


Another Saturday

Posted by Christine13 Nov 3, 2018

Saturday can be a tough day for me to stay quit.  My daughter's are busy doing their own things and I have extra time on my hands.  I was going to go to the mall today, but plans fell through, they didn't have what I was looking for yet.

So I'm just going to make other plans for the day.  Maybe some groceries to stock up on.  Be assured tho, I will get through this day alone and without my former smokes to rely on.  I'm pleased with my progress and don't want to screw that up, that's for sure!!

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