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Plugging along.

Posted by Christine13 May 29, 2018

Hi to all my Ex family!  I am doing ok, here, am feeling a bit squirrely here today.  I realize I haven't been taking very good care of myself in a long time.  I finally went to the doctor today and have a severe eye infection that is affecting my vision.  He prescribed a strong ointment for me, and I also picked up a wet/dry mask.  It is immpertive to take care of this and my quit.  I will have to follow up with a specialist.  June 1st I start my 6th month without Brian and I am doing a lot better with that.  It still comes in waves, but not as often, just like the quit.  I had an opportunity to go to my sister and brother-in-law's cottage this last weekend and was totally smoke free and I didn't crave either.  I haven't been here much because I was busy planting my garden and pots, and I love the flowers!!  Somehow I will get through the day without smoking, today it seems to be bothering me a lot.  I will get out my quit kit.  


Coming Up.

Posted by Christine13 May 9, 2018

Finally I am looking forward to the challenge of remaining smoke free.  Friday will be what would have been our 44th wedding anniversary.  It's only been 4 months since Brian passed.  I started over yesterday, and I am willing to really challenge all my moods and emotions without the cancer sticks.  Last week was a heck of a week, with much anxiety and panic about everything.  It will only happen now, because I'm willing to start a new life without Brian and do the things I really need to do to stay quit.  Already my lungs feel better and now I have my garden to work in and the nice weather to appreciate.  So many people here have been kind to me, and patient and supportive.  I am very grateful.

I pretty much isolated myself last week because I was feeling so terrible.  I spent too many days alone, and will take steps to avoid that in the week coming up.  I have been here a long time, and should have many years quit by now.

If it weren't for my EX family to keep me trying I would have given up a long time ago.  So now there is no more try, there is only do!  xoxo

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