Just writing tonight, just wanted to say my husband Brian always drove me anywhere I wanted to go, I was secure and dependant other than my independence here with the kids and raising them, but driving was always a barrier for me.
Now I am no longer in his protection, he passed Jan. 1st. First Easter without him, and I am getting there day by day.
Part of me is still in shock..........he died. I live on and today for the first time ever I used the GPS and drove to my sister Bonnie's for brunch. It took courage and me telling myself I could do it! I wanted to make an excuse but didn't-knew I had to face the unknown to build confidence for another day. I am darn proud of myself, and I did it smokefree!!
God was protecting me today..........Easter Sunday, he has risen. I look forward to tomorrow, another day won! The feelings of cravings come in waves, just like the grief. I am learning to do without Brian, and the smokes. May you all be blessed on this day.............may you all overcome, just like I am learning to do one day at a time. xoxo Chrissie
