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Scared Again

Christine13
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Hiii..........I'm scared again over hubby's health.  Tomorrow is transfusion day again for him.  He is having a great amount of difficulty.  I hope we don't end up in the ER again tonight.  This morning he yelled for me when he was up in bed and I ran upstairs just shaking and scared.  I got up there and he just wanted an advil and an extra blanket because he was shivering.  It just hurts my soul so much to see him so sick.  Feeling overwhelmed, but I will light a candle for him and pray and call an ambulance today if necessary.  I will be giving it up to God to guide me to do the right thing here.

I won't be smoking, because that wouldn't solve anything at all.  It wouldn't make him feel better, and would only make me feel way worse.  I've gotta stay strong here!

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I'm a widow now, my husband passed away January 1, 2018 He died of COPD, and pre leukemia and the flu. He quit smoking 15 years ago which gave him extra time. I am a mother, and grandmother. I have smoked for 47 years. I am going to have my forever quit and I'm doing it for me and my two daughters so I can live longer and be with them. I like to read, swim, garden, crochet, paint and doodle. I also enjoy walking and visiting with friends and family. I am 100% making this my last quit. I have been in denial about what smoking has done to me and my kids. I must make a new life for myself and it doesn't include cigarettes. I may already have COPD, but have not been officially diagnosed.