Feeling Positive!

[Christine13]

Good Morning!  Just wanted to let you know I am having a happy positive day.  After being down with a bad cough and cold for 4 days, I'm beginning to feel better!  I took hubby for a long car ride across the city this morning so he could have his blood checked.  Hopefully a transfusion tomorrow or Wednesday.  I am going to enjoy the rest of today smokefree of course.  I have the energy to go for a walk today, and will do some stress relieving Yoga.  I feel like it's all coming together.  I want to stay quit more than I want to smoke.  In other words I want to live more than I want to die.  Somehow before I don't really think I felt worthy of a forever quit, always going back to my old comfort in smoking to sooth away my problems.  They didn't solve anything, didn't change anything.  Brian is still ill and I have to cope with it on different a different level.  We meet with cancer care next Monday regarding if they will do a bone marrow transplant or just chemo to lengthen his life. This is a difficult time for sure but if I can make it through this I can make it through anything.  So for today, I'm focusing on staying quit, and living in the moment.  Thanks to everyone who has supported me throughout this and our journey.