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Tomorrow

Christine13
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Have butterflies in my stomach about my husband's surgery tomorrow.  His blood is really down and he will have to have surgery like that because they can't fit him in for a transfusion until Wednesday.  He is dragging now.

Hopefully it will go well, and I will feel calmer tomorrow after I get him home.  I will have to take him in a cab so a bit worried about him being dopey afterwards.  It's day surgery, will take 4 or 5 hours at the hospital.  Anyway, I've been anxious about it all weekend.  It will be good to have it overwith tomorrow.  I will do a lot of deep breathing.  It's good to know I won't have to worry about going out to have a smoke.  Just another step, one step at a time, one day at a time.  I will enjoy the day today and try and be mindful and give it up to God.

Smoking won't make the anxiety go away, it would probably only make it worse.  It doesn't solve anything, never did, never will, now if I can just convince myself of that, all would be ok.  My inner junkie wants me to smoke and keeps telling me I need it.  I don't need it - I must stay strong!

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I'm a widow now, my husband passed away January 1, 2018 He died of COPD, and pre leukemia and the flu. He quit smoking 15 years ago which gave him extra time. I am a mother, and grandmother. I have smoked for 47 years. I am going to have my forever quit and I'm doing it for me and my two daughters so I can live longer and be with them. I like to read, swim, garden, crochet, paint and doodle. I also enjoy walking and visiting with friends and family. I am 100% making this my last quit. I have been in denial about what smoking has done to me and my kids. I must make a new life for myself and it doesn't include cigarettes. I may already have COPD, but have not been officially diagnosed.