On The Brink of Self-Destruction

Blog Post created by Christine12252016 on Feb 13, 2017

One would think that at 1 month, 2 weeks, 5 days and 12 hours into one's quit, that it would be easier than it is.

Last couple of days I've been having some very tough moments and feel like I'm getting closer and closer to giving in.  WHY is this!? I know that I'm feeling deprived at these times, and need to stop feeling that way, SOMEHOW. The only thing I can think of is, did I mess something in Allen Carr's book? What do ya'll recommend I do now? My mind is of course trying to trick me into thinking I'll feel so good to have a cigarette. I will allow myself to picture it (smoking) briefly, only to realize that it will taste terrible and I would really be mad at myself for having given in to a great quit. Am I treading dangerous ground by allowing myself to picture this?  Is this the brink of self-destruction? I keep forgetting that this could also be my lack of meds (Wellbutrin). I started cutting back a week or two ago, maybe too much. I will have to keep watch with this aspect. I realize I may have been trying to cut back too soon, considering I was a 40 year long smoker. It has also been a while since I blogged, partly due to the new website format. I'm still learning how to navigate it. 


So anyway, I feel a bit better already just having blogged. Thank ya'll for being here and listening! =)


I will NOT smoke today. N.O.P.E.