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Barbara has 5 years!

Posted by Barbara145 Oct 11, 2018

What a journey.  I was a hurting unit when I said I was never going to smoke another cigarette.  I had smoked for 52 years.  I was diagnosed with COPD.  I thought to myself, " I am not going to stop smoking."  I was in the car driving.  A few minutes later, a little voice said, "Oh I think you can do better than that."  I began to devise a plan. The truth is, I wanted to live more than I wanted to smoke cigarettes. Chronicled on this site are my ups and downs and all arounds. Losses, gains. illness and wellness.  Looking back I would change nothing.  I am happier, healthier and living life to the fullest.  All the lovely people and experts on this site have taught me and supported me.  I am so grateful to God and Ex.  I tried for decades to stop smoking.  I was never able to accomplish it until I found Become an Ex.  If I can do this, you can too.    Love,   Barbara

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Sharing My Miracle

Posted by Barbara145 Aug 3, 2018

About two weeks ago I was having some back pain The pulmonologist called it chest pain and ordered a chest x-ray.  It had been a year since I had one.  I smoked for 52 years and quit just about 5 years ago.  They saw the dreaded spot.  He ordered a CT scan and they found 2 nodules one in each lung. He ordered a PET scan to rule out metastatic cancer.  My family and many friends have been praying fervently.  I am amazed at how calm I have been waiting for the results of each test.  When I was a smoker, I would have been freaking out for 2 solid weeks.  Smoking one cigarette after the other for 2 solid weeks. Not this time.  When we speak of the changes in ourselves after quitting smoking, we are telling the truth.  Quitting smoking changes people in unimaginable ways.   What a gift.  When I registered for my PET scan on Tuesday, I read the paperwork that the doctor had sent over to the hospital.  My diagnosis was "Lung Cancer."  Still no freaking out but sad to my core.  The doctor just called with the results, "No cancer."  The area was scarring.  I feel so blessed.  Quit smoking if you are on the fence.   Love to all,   Barbara  

Often people wonder, "What will my life look like after I quit smoking.?"  Well after 52 years of smoking and 4 1/2 years quit and I am 71 years old, it is amazing.  I could not wake up until about 1 pm when I was smoking. I think I was constantly o.d'd on nicotine and carbon monoxide.  I was just out walking my dog at 8 a.m. on a beautiful morning in Virginia. I was on a continuous incline and then it steepened. I decided to sprint up the rest.  My dog loved it and I did too. You see I was in ICU about two years ago for "Respiratory Failure".  I was sent home on a bunch of meds and oxygen.  I was told to go to Duke and get a lung transplant by a Pulmonologist from Cleveland Clinic.  I never went to Duke.  Fast forward 2 years, very few meds and no oxygen and an active life. God is good. I am so into self care.  I eat a well balanced diet with lots of fruit and protein, I take a lot of supplements and sleep well. Life is good.  I walk everyday and do yoga once a week with a yoga class. Life is sweet for this retired nurse.  As you can guess I believe quitting smoking is worth the effort.   Try it and see.  You will not be disappointed.      

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Words of wisdom

Posted by Barbara145 Mar 13, 2018

"Fear and resistance are the dragons that stand at the door of the temple that contains the jewel you seek.    Just keep going."      Alan Cohen

I tried to quit smoking so many times over the years that I lost count. For me, before NRT's, I could not make it 24 hours. About 15 years ago I quit for 3 mos with the patch. I cried everyday the entire time.  I decided as much as I wanted to quit there was just no way for me.  I was listening to Dr.Radio one day and they were talking about using 2 forms of  NRT's.  It perked my interest.  It was something new.  The rest is history.  I smoked for 52 years and now have been quit for 4 awesome years.  I had no idea when I began how very wonderful not smoking would actually be.  Quitting smoking is a very individual journey.  Never give up on finding what works for you. The support of this lovely community was paramount in this process for me.  I don't think I could have quit without them.   I have more peace and joy than I ever did smoking.  If I can do it.  You can too.  Love,   Barbara

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Connie

Posted by Barbara145 Sep 12, 2017

Has anyone heard from Connie?

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Time to try to inspire

Posted by Barbara145 May 11, 2017

Finally after 52 years of smoking quite heavily I quit with the love and support of Ex. I was 66 at the time and I am now 70.  I have "Bad Emphysema", so they say.  I was in ICU for respiratory failure in August.  You would never know it now.  I garden, rake leaves, walk 30 minutes everyday and do yoga at a local fitness center. (Hard class.)  I am on my way out the door to go to the woods and dig up a honey suckle to take to my daughter-in-law.  I will plant it in the woods just behind her house and beautiful pool. She loves the fragrance.  You are never too old to quit smoking. I love my new life and the new me. If I can quit smoking, you can quit smoking.  I promised my self no matter what I wanted, no matter what I was feeling a cigarette would never again be the solution.  It is tough especially for the first 3 or 4 months and it is a journey.  I just keep growing even now.  God bless and have a beautiful smoke-free day.

My point is that life gets better and better the farther you get from being a smoker. I quit a little over 3 years ago after smoking for 52 years.  I had my 70th birthday last Sunday.  Two surprise parties were given for me over the week-end.  I hosted my sisters for a super bowl get together after the party on Sunday.  It was truly the most fun of any of my other birthdays.  Also I was in ICU for respiratory failure (from smoking) less than 6 months ago. I am doing great (amazing.)  My only med is 2 puffs of low dose symbicort once a day.  No oxygen or nebulizers.  Had I not stopped smoking when I did I doubt that my outcome would have looked anything like it does.  I walk 30 minutes everyday.  If you haven't stopped smoking, please do.  Life is truly much better without them.

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Barbara145 Archived Profile

Posted by Barbara145 Jan 23, 2017

Description

 

I am a 66 yr old divorced female.  I have 2 grown sons both married.  I have 4 grandchildren.  I live with my 2 dogs.  I am recently retired.  I have smoked most of my life.  I have tried many times to quit and pretty much decided I couldnt.  I have been an LPN for 37 years.  I loved nursing.  I also dabbled in real estate investing for several years.


Brief Description

66 year old, retired, healthy female


Website

No website in profile.


Location

virginia


Interests

family, yoga, my dogs, my faith, learning and growing, nutrition


Skills

management


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Just a quick note

Posted by Barbara145 Jan 7, 2017

Hello good people.  The last time i blogged it was to tell you I had been in ICU with respiratory failure.  I did not know if  I would ever get well.  I was on nebulizer treatments and several courses of steroids and antibiotics after I got out of the hospital. Well I have been doing much better lately. No steroids, no nebulizers.  It snowed a lot in Virginia over night.  Like 6 to 7 inches.  My little dog would not even stick her nose out.  I bundled up and away we went.  I loved it ( I grew up in West Virginia.)  I will turn 70 in a couple of weeks but there is still a little W.Va. girl in me. Shortly after I got back inside my O2 Sat was 99%. Praise the Lord!  There is always hope my friends.  If you quit smoking the possibilities are endless.  Love to all the courageous people who have quit smoking or that are thinking about it.

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Wow 3 Years

Posted by Barbara145 Oct 12, 2016

Thank you precious exer"s for all the well wishes and congratulations. It has been a journey of growth and healing and feeling.  When I quit smoking I thought I would not have to pay for 52 years of smoking.  Wrong!  I have emphysema, COPD and asthma.  ( I did not know any of that when I quit.)  ActuallyI had been told I had COPD but no tests to substantiate that.)  Well I have been sick alot since last   February.  Multiple courses of strong steroids and antibiotics.  August 25th I was taken to the emergency room and admitted to ICU for respiratory failure. I suspect if I had not quit smoking when I did I would not have survived it.  God knew.  Fast forward to today I am o.k.  Did my yoga last night, my sats are running 96 to 98.  I am on steroid and brochodilator nebulizers 5 times a day.  The hospital sent me home with oxygen which at the present time I don't need. All I can say is that I wish I had quit smoking way back when.  As for now I am enjoying this precious life I have been given and I pray for the best.  With love,     Barbara

Hello everyone.  I keep turning on my computer to see that 1000 days on my page.  I look back at the changes in me.  I am a kinder, gentler, Barbara.  I am learning to accept myself.  In many ways I rushed around trying to be someone I am not.  I am so much more mindful of nature, healing wonderful nature.  My life has not been easier in the last 1000  days but it has been less stressful. Life is so much less stressful without cigarettes. Quitting smoking is the most loving thing I have done for me in my lifetime.  The gifts of quitting smoking are too numerous to count.  Won't you join us? Thank you to all the beautiful people here who have made this day possible.  God bless each and everyone.

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Wondering

Posted by Barbara145 Feb 24, 2016

I am still thinking about Fannie who died from smoking at 52 years old.  What a beloved lady she was.  Like many of us I need to make sense out of things that upset me. Looking back through her blogs I see that she took lots of steroids (because she kept smoking.)  Steroids deplete us of D-3. We need it for our lungs, our immunity and overall health.  I bet her level was so low.  I believe it contributed to her death.  If you have not quit smoking please do and if you don not take D-3 please do.  Many primary care physicians are checking levels when you get your yearly labwork done.  I keep mine between 60 and 70.  May God bless each one of you : )  

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The journey continues

Posted by Barbara145 Jan 27, 2016

Quitting smoking is difficult for most people.  It was for me.  It has been 2 years and 3 months since I quit. I thought cigarettes helped my depression they did not. I thought they relaxed me, they did not.  I was LOST without them. It took about a year for me to get over cigarettes and to see they were not good or helpful for me or my life. For me it has been a journey figuring out what life without cigarettes would look like for me.  I am 68 and I smoked since I was 14. I am retired and I have been kind of lost.  The good news is my life, my brain, my lungs and my physical body just keep getting better and better.  I just signed up for a Tai Chi class. I have done Yoga for years.  I began walking everyday for my lungs and I began a pilates class recently also. Another thing I recently did for myself was to hire a lady to clean my house every two weeks (cigarettes cost more than what I pay her a month.)    Physically I COULD clean my house but I have never enjoyed it.  No more beating up on myself about that.  I feel healthier (I am heallthier.)  I feel like a nicer, kinder person.  I continue to trust God and look for the next open door.  You can do this.  Trust the process.  Love,   Barbara  

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Addiction

Posted by Barbara145 Oct 17, 2015

"The opposite of addiction is not sobriety it is connection."       author unknown